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i felt alone today..

everything went wrong..

i've ask 3 of my friends to go out and meet up today..

at first they say *ok*.. but then.. at the end the answer is all the same *lazy*..

gosh i felt alone today..

why is this happening to me..

but i understands =)..

im a strong boy..

i know i can go through this..

i just wish that all my friends are always happy and wont be in the same road as i am now..

and i thought *what comes around goes around*

well those words are a 110% bullshit for me =)

i love to help people.. especially the people i knew.. but what did i get for helping them? 

i pray everynight to god.. that i wish to have a better life.. but still.. every single seconds is a disaster for me..

there's a time that i've been thinking about suicide.. but i promise to someone that i wont do that stupid thing.. 

she was the only one that can make me smile =)..

although she can make me smile.. but until now no one knows what i really feel.. inside..

ps: mom, dad sry to disappoint u but i dont think that im a good son.. all these days u say im gonna be someone that is very special.. but i think i wont =).. sry agn